Rebellion

So, I've been eating 100% raw. No cravings. Doing great. Getting at least a quart of green vegetable juice down me each day. But today, while I'm not craving anything bad, I am 'craving' a shot of convenience. I want some fast food. RAW fast food. Just something prepared that I don't have to cook. I don't even have smoothie makings right now. I will tomorrow when my blueberries show up, but until then, I have convinced myself I can't make a smoothie. I've been eating apples. I don't want to do my yoga. I want an easy day. After all, it's Sunday, the day of rest? I want to rest. I don't want to make my juice either.

I do have some avocados. And a Larabar. Bananas. Actually, I have a whole refrigerator full of produce. And young coconuts. It's not like there's not something here to eat. And eat simply, even. I'm just being a baby. Rebellious.

I have freeze-dried durian. Seriously, I'm not going to starve. I have chia seeds and apples. I like to juice the apples and soak the chia in it and then slice in a banana. Oh yeah...I have all those things. I just lack the desire to feed myself.

I wonder what this rebellion stems from? A desire to be nurtured and taken care of? Maybe. I feel fine being raw. Just lazy.

I think I'll munch some avocados. Hang on till tomorrow when I might feel more like feeding myself. After all, I'll have my blueberries and will be out of excuses for not making a calorie and energy-rich smoothie.

Caitlyn