I Want, I Want!

Why is it so hard? Why don't we hate foods that make us unwell and crave foods that gives us life? I've read that it is because we are sick. Our bodies have spent so much effort keeping us alive after we've dumped horrible things into ourselves, that we're adapted and adjusted to eating vileness. Yes, it is too vileness. I'm that unwell. Aren't you? Oh, I look functionally fine, an average American woman. But that's where our standards are off. We don't even know what health looks like.

I spent an uncomfortable half hour or so, fighting with myself over wanting a chile relleno dinner with rice and beans, corn torillas, and salad with ranch. I ended up having four and a half cups of green vegetable juice. But was I actually fighting myself? I think I was fighting toxins that want to win the battle for my body and my soul. AND my very life.

Before that, I spent even a longer while craving a Big Matt with cheeze from Matt Amsden's RAWvolution restaurant. And some of his marinated greens. He'll send a box of approximately a week's worth of raw food anywhere in the US for a price. The price for me is $150. I've been playing with the idea of getting myself a box for Christmas. It just so happens that next week's box has both the Big Matt and marinated greens included. My bad coffee bean-taunting partner redeemed himself by lovingly and magnanimously telling me I'm worth it, and can have a box if I really want one.

I think I really want one.

Caitlyn